As Long as You Want

A lovely new friend Lauren posted Anne Carson's translation of Sappho's fragment 45 on Instagram this morning and was suddenly the inspiration for this month's newsletter. 

As long as you want...

Let’s imagine that today, someone came up to you, someone you truly admired or loved and said simply, take as long as you want. This might take on many different scenarios, but the thing is: you finally got the permission to prioritize yourself in the midst of all that swirls and demands your attention. During this Sagittarius season, Jupiter’s hand is generous, large and capable. You are being reminded that you can afford to take your time, set priorities that include meeting your basic needs, and tell those around you to wait.  This is not selfishness. This is not naivite. This is survival. Consider the emergency scenario on an airplane when the flight attendant tells you that you need to put on your own oxygen mask before you help those next to you. Why? Because you need to be breathing to help others. 

How have you neglected yourself in the basics? Where are you in judgement of yourself? How does this stunt your growth as a human in the world? Where can you extend more generosity to yourself and in turn to those around you? Where can you relieve some pressure? How can you better prioritize the demands of the world around you?

In the Wild Unknown Tarot Deck the Tower card looks like a tree, struck by lightning and falling down. This tree appeared in my dreams recently falling to the ground in slow motion. The tree needed to come down, decompose and feed the forest floor. ln the dream the falling tree let me know that an old story had just felled. And the new tower, the new story was growing but was young, and in need of yes, time

Dear clients and friends. Have patience right now.  Ask for time. Ask for time. Ask for time. Ask for time (seems all I've been doing lately). Give yourself room. Draw a wide berth. Meditate. Prioritize. Garden. Spend time in flow. Did I say have patience?

Aries New Moon: Redefining Adventure

Recently I had someone describe me as adventurous. I honestly had never used the word adventurous as a way of describing myself, in fact had often thought of the word as pedestrian, too often used, and co-opted.    

As I am currently spending a season in Moab, Utah the word adventure is reflected all around me through a town whose tourist business thrives on outfitting people to move down rivers, scale arches, and hike mountains. 
 
It occurred to me that on this day of the New Moon in Aries, I might reinvent the word adventure for myself, and remember that adventure at its root includes definitions like these:  an exciting and remarkable experience, to take a chance and to risk the loss of…

To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.

--Mary Oliver from Blackwater Woods
 
Aries offers us a beginning point of reference for this next moon cycle. It might be a time to consider what our own version of adventure looks like. Adventure can show up anywhere, not just in some distant country or place.  When do we recognize the places in our lives where we take risks? When have we been proud of ourselves for being strong? What are we willing to take a chances on? Where can we pat ourselves on the back with the reflection of a job well done. Are we facing our fears?

In Frank Herbert's Dune, a book where the fictional planet feels and looks very much like the current piece of earth I live on, there is a mantra about fear: 
 
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

Tonight I've decided to greet the new moon with courage, turn the inner eye on my own path and face the new month with this newly defined sense of adventure. 

M Train at the Wow Cafe

The last page of Patti Smith's book M Train ends   with a  picture. It’s the only pic in the book that does not give us words to make sense of it. The pic is   of the Wow Café,  Point Loma Pier, California. The picture seems   deliberately placed to create not only an ambiguous ending but a game of tag where Patti seemed to say you’re it   to anyone who will listen.

I just happened to be visiting San Diego and minutes from this final picture.  I just happened to be listening.

M Train traverses dream, literary/artistic pilgrimage, and psychogeography (our impulse to wonder and wander).  We get to follow Patti down roads that lead to Kahlo, Plath, Brecht and Murakami (who she speaks of so endearingly as a living writer with the actual possibility of connecting outside of graveyards and historic sites). She talks of these art and literary sites as portals and seems to have an insatiable drive to be where her art-hero’s lived and died.

I will also go to great lengths to find these portals. My own habit is to bring the right book to the right place. So, here I sit at the Wow Café in Ocean Beach on the Point Loma Pier where M Train ended with M Train in hand.

My own literary pilgrimages are many, starting with the Bronte Sisters home on the moors and advancing all over the globe through (just to name a few) Plath, Kahlo, Hugo, Wilde, Rilke, Rodin, and Claudel.

Patti Smith says she is singularly driven to get my shot  when she arrives onto a scene of sacred importance.  She says,   Spanish Pilgrims travel on Camino de Santiago from monastery to monastery collecting small medals to attach to their rosary as proof of their steps. I have stacks of Polaroid’s, each marking my own, that I sometimes spread out like tarots or baseball cars of an imagined celestial team.

Is it that we want to mark our territory? Claim that we were there too? Leave our DNA literally where someone we have revered last resided? Why was I driven to climb that final path up to the grave of  D.H.  Lawrence  in the mountains of Taos, New Mexico as if everything depended on it?  While there I read the notebook/log of the many other pilgrims who had done the same thing. They left words. At Sylvia Plath’s grave Patti said they left pens. She said while there she had the uncontrollable urge to urinate.

While at the   Rodin Library Archives in Paris I saw the letters that Rilke wrote to Rodin. These pen and ink tattoos represented the bend in time where Rilke and I touched the same thing at once. The coffee stain on the that handwritten letter was the portal Smith speaks of by which, with a little imagination, we are transported into  a psycho-spiritual link that renders time irrelevant.

While in the archives my girlfriend at the time and I got to see a box full of personal notebooks in which Rodin sketched and mused. Hundreds. All different. All beautiful.  All full. They were so precious that we could only check out one at a time. We decided to place a single hair (one from each of us) in one of the notebooks, leaving a proverbial bread crumb trail of DNA that would lead us back to this place without getting lost.  This is how a pilgrimage site is born.   

It might be said that this pastime with  our   dead,  art-hero's is queer, strange. Our impulse is alive though in spite of  this  when we save the last chapter of the Rodin biography to read at his grave in Meudon under the blooming magnolia trees next to the over friendly cats. 

This desire becomes more than an impulse but a mineral that is assimilated   and proven to be essential, nutritious. 

Above I've left my own pics of the café as an homage to Patti Smith's own impulses, my own impulses and the impulses of all the other pilgrims out there. You know who you are.  

The Etymology of Desire

I finished my last day with the Sundance Film Festival on February 12th and by February 17th my car was packed and I was ready to spend a month on the road meeting friends and clients old and new. I just left Moab and am currently in Denver and Boulder until next week when I drive down to San Diego and L.A until mid-March.
 
On my trip to Denver (with major stops at the Glenwood Springs post-rock-slide blockades) the Moon and Jupiter kept me grand company. Got me thinkin’ about the current conversation between Saturn in Sagittarius and the South Node/Chiron in Pisces.
 
Think of this conversation as a passionate art talk about the manifestation of dreams/desires. When we call up the etymology of the word desire from the Latin de sidere it literally means from the stars or awaiting what the stars will bring.
 
I see this constellatory time as fertile ground for the dream to find manifestation. Getting these two bad boys to work in tandem is the key. Saturn works hard to incarnate and Pisces keeps vigil on vision.
 
The proverbial master of clay, Auguste Rodin was a great example of vision turned to manifestation. The poet Rainer Maria Rilke wrote of Rodin this way in a letter to his wife Clara Rilke:
 
…You see, Rodin has lived nothing that is not in his work. Thus it grew around him. Thus he did not lose himself; even in the years when lack of money forced him to unworthy work, he did not lose himself, because what he experienced did not remain a plan, because in the evenings he immediately made real what he had wanted during the day. Thus everything always became real. That is the principal thing – not to remain with the dream, with the intention, with the being-in-the-mood, but always forcibly to convert it all into things. As Rodin did. 
 
Because what he experienced did not remain a plan…

Where are you on the scale of desire/dream manifestation with 1 representing the plan still floating in the ether and 10 representing the plan already incarnated and moving freely in the real world?

Manifesting a vision is much like the birth process. Are we willing to labor for our plan? What stage of labor do are we currently in? What real steps in the real world in the bright light of the sun are necessary to feel that we've succeeded? 

Please let me know if you want to work on the manifestation of a vision. This is exactly the kind of coaching work I am interested in. 

Below is a little poem from my own half-incarnated plan to write a book of poems based on the work of Auguste Rodin. Time to see this through folks!!

 
 Fallen Caryatid Carrying
  
They think I simply bear the weight of courtyard
talk like any good girl would, with silence.
They think I don’t see them catch my
burnished body in its soft contortion
only to claim it a pose of pity.
A girl taken down by a block of stone.
I do not open my eyes.  I alone
know the reason for infinite sitting.
 
What happens when you listen to a stone
for a bronze age?  You finally make out
its language.  Each weighty measure and tone
so paradoxically soft—what’s not known
is that I am poised to stand and shout
that I have found my name. That I am home.

Martyr Vs. Trickster: To Moab With Big Magic

I had my travelling shoes on last month with stops in Oakdale, California for Symbiosis and Moab for a check-in with lovely clients and a chance to see the super moon lunar eclipse in the desert. My driving companion was Audible’s Elizabeth Gilbert reading from her new book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear.
 
Elizabeth Gilbert works a few angles in this book (part self-help, part primer on creative living). I love how she looks at the anatomy of an idea and the idea’s impulse to incarnate. When an idea comes knocking at our door we have the opportunity to invite it in or turn it away.  If we invite it in, we have the responsibility of bringing that idea to fruition. If we turn it away however, that idea will move to another door.
 
Her book has the familiar currents of the energy we’ll be feeling for a while on the heels of the lunar eclipse in Aries. We have pushed the restart button and may feel this for a few months to come. Aries, in charge of freeing the self from ties that bind, is working overtime right now. Do we ever diminish ourselves for others or make ourselves bigger in spite of others? What is my right place in the world? How do I recognize when I am there (in my right place)? Do I know how awesome I am?
 
She also gives us this interesting comparison between the martyr and the trickster with the opportunity to consider which camp we belong to. I had to ask myself some hard questions about which one I have tended to in my life. I ask you my dear readers, which one are you?
 
The Martyr VS the Trickster
 
We all have a bit of trickster in us, and we all have a bit of martyr in us (okay some of us have a lot of martyr in us), but at some point in your creative journey you will have to make a decision about which camp you wish to belong to, and therefore which parts of yourself to nourish, cultivate and bring into being. Choose carefully. As my friend the radio personality Caroline Casey always says: Better a trickster than a martyr be.” 
 
What’s the difference between a martyr and a trickster you ask? 
 
Here’s a quick primer.
 
Martyr energy is dark, solemn, macho, hierarchical, fundamentalist, austere, unforgiving and profoundly rigid. 
 
Trickster energy is light, sly, transgender, transgressive, animist, seditious, primal, and endlessly shape-shifting. 
 
Martyr says:” I will sacrifice everything to fight this unwinnable war, even if it means being crushed to death under a wheel of torment.“
 
Trickster says: “Okay, you enjoy that! As for me, I’ll be over here in this corner, running a successful little black market operation on the side of your unwinnable war.” 
 
Martyr says: “Life is pain.”
Trickster says: “Life is Interesting.” 
 
Martyr says: “ The system is rigged against all that is good and sacred.”
Trickster says: “There is no system, everything is good, and nothing is sacred.”
 
Martyr says: “ Nobody will ever understand me.”
Trickster says: “Pick a card, any card!”
 
Martyr says: “The world can never be solved.”
Trickster says: “Perhaps not…but it can be gamed.”
 
Martyr says: “Through my torment, the truth shall be revealed.”
Trickster says: “ I didn’t come here to suffer, pal”
 
Martyr says: “Death before dishonor!”
Trickster says: “ Let’s make a deal.”
 
Martyr always ends up dead in a heap of broken glory, while Trickster trots off to enjoy another day. 
 
Martyr = Sir Thomas More.
 
Trickster = Bugs Bunny. 
 
Gilbert goes on to talk about how the Trickster’s primary playing card is TRUST. It may seem counterintuitive to suggest this, because he can be so slippery and shady, but the trickster is full of trust. He trusts himself, obviously. He trusts his own cunning, his own right to be here, his own ability to land on his feet in any situation. 
 
This got me thinking about my own ability to trust myself. And, if I still have your attention my dear readers, I would love to hear from you! Would you please shoot me a sentence or two by way of email about what it means to trust yourself? I would be very grateful. 

Finally, I've met with some amazing, you could even say, tricksterish folks this month who seem to be telling me over and over again to lighten up, be curious, and to meditate (in the words of my nephew Ren) like a boss.

I Follow

I got a FB message a couple of days ago from a friend who wondered what to expect from the skies in September as everything she had heard sounded rather intense. It occurred to me to use her inquiry as a jumping off point for this month’s newsletter, I mean what exactly can we expect from September 2015? 
 
Also, this month I collaborated with my dear friend Pauline Paris from, yes it’s true, Paris. She is a quintessential chaunteuse playing the streets and bars of Paris with a song for anyone willing to listen. A modern day Edith Piaf, she has incredible original work but was up for recording a rendition of Likke Li’s I Follow Rivers for me. This song has become a sort of soundtrack for me of late and for this newsletter.  You’ll see how it all ties in. Please look Pauline up on her website: www. paulineparis.com and see below for the song. Make sure to click and listen!

Here’s how this month looks: Venus rolled out of Retrograde on September 6, with a Mercury Retrograde rolling in on September 17, which actually happens to be the day Saturn FINALLY leaves Scorpio for good. There is a Solar Eclipse in Virgo on September 12/13 and a Super Moon Lunar Eclipse in Aries on the 27/28.
 
Venus Goes Direct, September 6New Lease on Love
 
Venus was in retrograde from July 25th to September 6th. This period of time could have been a time of reflecting on past love relationships, healing from break-ups, or reflecting on one’s current relationships. All in all it would have been hard not to be hit by some reflection on the subject of love. Our relationships seem to have needed a good dose of authenticity—daring to be seen no matter what. 
 
Solar Eclipse in Virgo, September 12/13: Attention to Body and Work
 
Virgo has its locus in health and work. There might be themes around health and well-being this month. Virgo is meticulous with details, interested in learning, ready to master a subject and interested in practical application. Apply all of this to the body, health and work. You might be tempted toward distraction this month but would really benefit from putting your organizational skills at work. Remember that eclipses may signify endings or beginnings. Contact me if you would like more information about where the eclipses fall in your chart and what information might be gleaned from that inquiry. 
 
Saturn Shifts to Sagittarius, September 17: Pauline Paris sings I Follow Rivers by Likke Li

http://picosong.com/JJpJ  
Sagittarius may feel like liberation to many of us. Sagittarius also reveals the archetype of the pilgrim, or the awaiting pilgrimage. Where are you going? Who are you going to follow? As Likke Li say’s it: Oh, I beg you: can I follow? Oh, I ask you: why not always? Be the ocean, where I unravel. What road or river excites you? What country calls you? If you are not in a position to actually travel, what perspective shifts are ready to happen? What belief systems don’t work anymore? Where can you activate faith in your life? Where can you have more integrity, intention, and downright righteousness in your interactions with others?

Reconsidering the Mirror: A Podcast

Yesterday I had a deliberate conversation with Seattle based Astrologer and Wellness Alchemist Stephanie Gailing www.planetaryapothecary.com on the topic of mirroring. We recorded this conversation and turned it into a podcast for our lovely friends and clients. See the link below: 

https://soundcloud.com/s-and-s-conversations/s-s-conversations-mirroring

Are you someone who mirrors another person so well that it renders you invisible? How do we mirror constructively? Are you comfortable shining your light into a room? What brand of luminosity (the moon or the sun) do you use to render yourself visible? The moon needs the sun to make itself seen. Does your light come from others? The sun bears its own light and shines into a room without apology. Are you comfortable shining this way? What is your relationship to the ego? If we continually reflect another's authenticity and beauty back to them, could this be considered a relationship of equality? What does interdependent reflection look like in relationships? Does intimacy simply mean the willingness to be seen?

I hope that this topic intrigues some of you in the way it has intrigued me these last few days. I am grappling with all these questions myself, trying to figure out the most constructive ways to use the subtle but potent tool of mirroring. 

Love is in the Air

The word on the Astro-Street this month is the Venus retrograde in Leo from July 25th until September 6th. Think of this retrograde as a time to reflect on love, relationships, money, desire, beauty, and creative expression. I wanna send a shout-out to Tamara and Clair Zollinger who happen to be my parents and who currently live in New Zealand. I had a conversation with them today that showed me how far their love extended irregardless of their values or beliefs. In these times when WHOM we love is at the forefront of the country's psyche, it is time more than ever to have honest and real conversations with each other about HOW we love. Can we love in spite of our value differences? If so what does that conversation look like? Believe me I am not a textbook example of how to love but feel more ready than ever to have this conversation with myself.

Thought a little John Paul Young & Milk & Sugar would help us get even groovier about this love thing: http://picosong.com/mxNU
 
This retrograde will also square the indomitable Saturn in Scorpio peppering our love experience with words like transformation and intensity. How can we transform the way we love? What must die in us so that we might love more deeply?
 
Have you ever asked someone what your love feels like to him or her? I asked some of my closest friends/family recently and got very different answers. I discovered that my brand of loving includes both loyalty and commitment, but also unconscious wall building and territorialism. 
 
Where does our love hit a wall?
How can we shine our love more brightly?
 
What sign does Venus occupy in your natal birth chart? What does this tell you about your brand of loving? If you don't know how to identify your Venus in your birth chart send me an email! Better yet, let's have an entire session geared around this aspect of your chart. Either way, I always want to hear from you. 

Consider the offering below a collection of love letters from Venus to each of you.
 
Venus in Aries: I am direct and have bold intentions. Independence is appreciated but interdependence is the cosmological nut I am trying to crack. It is important to me to get the self-love thing down before I figure out how to love others. 

Venus in Taurus: I like to wine and dine. I love beauty for beauties sake. I am steadfast and loyal and take love quite seriously. I don't just want the one-night stand, but coffee and eggs the next morning and maybe many mornings thereafter. 
 
Venus in Gemini: Give me your brain first, and let me poke, prod, and suss out all your interesting facts along the way. Allow me the curiosity to ask you questions and get to know you through bright-eyed conversation and whimsical winks and nods. I will tell you this: that if you don't have the same spirited curiosity for me in return our love won't last long.
 
Venus in Cancer: Take me home and make me a grilled cheese sandwich and lie next to me for hours. In fact let’s stay in bed all weekend and watch tv. When you love me you love my family and all my friends and every ripple that touches me. Loyalty and sensitivy are key.
 
Venus in Leo: As William Blake puts it, I converse with the spiritual sun. My love lives above ground for all the world to see. I take a special kind of pride in those I love and couldn't be happier when art and creativity fall into the mix. Let's spend our time in art galleries and walking through creative cities both virtual and real. 
 
Venus in Virgo: I am not as critical as you think I am, its just my intense curiosity about you--the way you tick and all the details of what make you, you. I promise I will work hard at love. I won’t give up easily. If you will allow me to serve you well, the smile I beam in response will be a measure of how I feel about you. 
 
Venus in Libra:. Yes, I have a few rules that I wish everyone would follow. Love is not something to take for granted. I have the highest ideals and a golden heart but allow me to tell you how love looks to me. I shine more brightly when I can rely on my relationship to support me. I feel that I know love by its symmetry, taste and feel.
 
Venus in Scorpio: I only want the most intense experience out of love. My love can be possessive only because I love fully and deeply and will hang with anyone through the bad parts because I fully believe in transformation. Some folks think I am a player, but look at me more closely. Ultimately my eagle eyes seek ONE other that I can devote my abundant attention to. 
 
Venus in Sagittarius: I want to fall in love with your ideas, with what and how you think. Let’s travel the world together and think and learn and live with adventure and excitement. I am generous and want life to feel like a grand feast. If our love feels limited it is only because we have not set our sights high enough. 
 
Venus in Capricorn: I want to succeed at love. I want to put in the time and strength necessary to build the right foundation with those I love. Over a long arc of time, only then can we truly measure what my love feels like. Like good wine, time makes my love more robust. 
 
Venus in Aquarius: Ours will be a personal and transpersonal love. I love the one and the many all at once. Through my personal observation of love I can learn through trial and error how to love better. I am not opposed to putting love under a microscope to understand it a little more fully!
 
Venus in Pisces: I use rely on the mediums of music, dance, poetry and even spirituality to express my love in the world. Transcendence is the goal. Love is simply the merging of the one into the whole. Don't make me break it down into logic, but rather let me show you its circular language. 

A Last Look!

Does a book ever find you? Have you walked into a bookstore and had a book drop down right in front of you? Have you found books while traveling or in friend’s bookshelves that end up exact matches for what you were thinking or feeling at the time?
 
While down in Moab Utah this month I found Terry Tempest Williams’ book, Refuge in the window sill of my sister’s house. This book found me. I had read it years ago, but thought it a good idea to read it again.
 
From my astrological calculations TTW wrote Refuge during her own Saturn Return in Scorpio. The book was about the flooding of the Bear River Bird Refuge simultaneous to her mother’s struggle with cancer. I couldn’t help thinking of Saturn in Scorpio all throughout my reading of her book. Saturn entered Scorpio for all of us on October 6, 2012. In December 2014 it switched signs and entered Sagittarius, but will have one final foray/retrograde into Scorpio now until September 18th.
 
Williams put her struggle on paper, linking her story to the world so that we could relate. She spoke about grief, rage, and what seemed unfair in her life. But she also spoke about her family, friends, ancestors, and everyday happenings that kept her searching for meaning in her turbulent world. Saturn asks us to come home to our bones while Scorpio acts as a deepening agent. Williams spoke of it as bedrock. This is the place where the mundane world IS the most beautiful of all. There is no artifice here. Authenticity is implicit. Fear is gone. It is a kind of coming home to some deep, real place inside.
 
Ah, not to be cut off,
not through the slightest partition
shut out from the law of the stars.
The inner—what is it?
if not intensified sky,
hurled through with birds and deep
with winds of homecoming.
                                                --Rainer Maria Rilke
 
 
What would you pare down to make more room for authentic living?
What role does nature play in your life?
What in your life do you recognize as bedrock?
Are there any fences that need to be mended?
What role does constructive boundary making play?
What needs to be transformed NOW, not tomorrow?

RX Spells Retrograde

The rock star of this month’s newsletter is none other than quick-witted Mercury with its spin around the sun and infamous retrograde three times a year. Yep folks, Mercury will be retrograde in the sign of Gemini from May 18th to July 11th of 2015. Consider this newsletter a little survival guide with suggestions on what you can do to make the most of this period.
 
Susan Miller of Astrology Zone gives a nice explanation of what is actually happening with Mercury during this time:
 
Mercury doesn't actually move backward. If you do a bit of stargazing, you will see that Mercury appears to move backward, just as the ancient astrologers perceived thousands of years ago. After a while - in Mercury's case, a three-and-a-half-week period - the planet will reverse itself and move "forward" again. Because Mercury is the planet situated closest to the Sun, its orbit is much shorter than Earth's. About three or four times a year, Mercury speeds past Earth, and that is when we experience a Mercury retrograde period. If you were in a car and another car passed you, you could tell it was going faster than you. But if it slowed down and you then passed it, it would appear that that car was actually going backward. Then when the other car speeds up and passes you again, it kicks up all of the dust in the road. As Mercury speeds by, it is like a train flying past, creating a powerful, turbulent gust of "wind" in its wake. 
 
Make sure to back up all electronics!
Expect friends, loved ones, maybe even ex-lovers from the past to reappear.
Revise, rewrite, respond, reconnect, restore, rearrange, reassess, revisit, reduce.
Careful attention should be paid to communication of all kinds. Think before you speak.
Use this time to find neutral. Shift down from the high speeds of life.
Reread, reevaluate, reflect, recharge.
Yield when a certain situation seems impossible. There may be another way through.
 
Just yesterday I was knee-deep in my storage unit re-reading my journals from when I was 17 and 18 years old. A perfect retrograde activity!

Gut Symmetries

It’s the morning of the full moon eclipse in Libra as I sit and write in the La Barba coffee shop, cappuccino in hand, in the City of Salt. I have let out a sigh of relief today! Do you feel it too?  We’ve made it through some pretty turbulent waters with the last Pluto/Uranus square in mid-March, and the solar eclipse on March 20! Today, even though we are in another eclipse, it is a celestial event that seeks to harmonize and integrate the raw emotions of the last few weeks.
 
“For the first time in months I felt my body slacken.” –Jeanette Winterson
 
Yep, I’ve been readin’ Jeannette Winterson. This Virgo-author with a Gemini moon wrote a novel called Gut Symmetries. I borrowed her title and a few quotes from the book to help explain the energy of the next few weeks coming off the lunar eclipse.
 
The Moon—Gut
Libra—Symmetries
 
The Moon, full, receptive, and nurturing, is the ruler of emotions and of the zodiacal sign Cancer, which traditionally rules the stomach. The moon speaks to our core emotional landscape, especially that piece of real estate down inside the belly, the gut. This is a landscape that is capable of going from a tranquil beach getaway to a rain-soaked-hurricane in a matter of minutes. The moon is our place of intuition, place of tribe, trust, and treating ourselves well. 
 
Libra, the scales, is seduced by symmetry, line and design. Libra wants to include and harmonize. Relationship oriented, Libra is invested in true beauty, true art, and true love and will build its value system accordingly. Venus ruled, Libra will seek to keep the waters peaceful and would rather fall in love than fight.
 
Do you fall in love often?
 
“Yes often. With a view, with a book, with a dog, a cat, with numbers, with friends, with complete strangers, with nothing at all.”   
 
This full moon is about bringing symmetry into the gut. It might feel like something is finally shaking loose way down inside. We may feel inspired to suspend judgment and find acceptance of all our emotions. We may even be able to take our emotions less personally and see them as floating clouds that drift in and out all day. It might be time to strengthen the core and finally take that yoga class we’ve been meaning to take. It might be time to let ourselves cry it out. It might be time (as I said in the last newsletter) to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.  
 
What sign is your moon? You should all have a copy of your charts. Find the symbol that looks like a moon. See if you can figure out which sign it is in. What kind of information does it reveal about your emotional landscape? My moon sign is in Gemini (just like Winterson’s). It is important to me that my emotions (the Moon) are spoken (Gemini). Please let me know if you’d like to book a session dedicated to your moon sign and what it might tell you about your emotional landscape.

Simultaneous Beginnings and Endings

I have just come from an early spring journey to Moab, Utah where I worked with many bright-eyed and beautiful clients. Moab is such a zany and unique community, a sort of post-modern never-never land where time gets a chance to unwind. While there I started thinking about the upcoming solar eclipse in Pisces occurring exactly on the vernal equinox of March 20th.  I wondered how I could use this celestial event constructively, and naturally thought of how you could use it as well.
 
The eclipse occurs at the final degree of Pisces (the last sign of the Zodiac) which just happens to be one degree from Aries (the first sign of the Zodiac). These celestial neighbors share the borderland between endings and beginnings, the place where we might see the past, present and future all at once. There may be something that is finally ready to be put to rest, and under these astrological conditions, ending and beginnings are virtually simultaneous. With this timeless sight, we can allow our grasp on the past to slacken, and with the courage of Aries let go of what doesn’t serve or nurture us anymore. The eclipse may indeed be the portal that makes the impossible possible, the stuck unstuck, and the frustrating far less frustrating. Pisces reminds us to mourn the loss, and Aries allows us to look to the future with a new set of eyes.
 
Is there something I'm ready to let go?
How can I do things differently this time?
What would it mean to save myself without thinking about everyone around me?
What in my life has needed to die for a long time but hasn't because of addictive behavior or fear?
If I could seed a vision for my future, what would it look like?
Where in my life do I feel strong and brave?
Who are my allies?
 
 Wild Geese
 
by Mary Oliver
 
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and deep trees,
the mountains and rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again. 
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting—
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things. 
 
 
If you are curious about how best to work with this eclipse (its influence can be felt some months before and after the actual event), please let me know and we will set up a consultation to dig deep into your heart and chart for the way forward.

Sundance Inspired

I am writing this newsletter late into the evening, after a very busy January. I’ve just finished a temporary but intensive job working for the Sundance Film Festival in Park City Utah. It has me thinking about creativity, the creative process and my role as both a creative being and as a passionate advocate/coach for those on the creative path. I attended a panel that consisted of a conversation between Robert Redford and George Lucas about the creative life and the power of story. The conversation inspired me to think about the simple but so often elusive concept of doing what we love.  
 
There are four planets, Venus, Chiron, Neptune and Mars currently stationed in the sign of Pisces, highlighting the dreamy realms of cinema, photography, spirituality, music, the subconscious, metaphor and vision. With these planets in conversation, sharing the same visionary sign, there are apropos questions we can ask:  What kind of vision do we want to build be it creative or otherwise? What kind of vision are we realizing within our partnerships, our work, our communities, and within ourselves?
 
Venus in Pisces asks us to realize a vision of something we love to do. This vision starts internally as an image of something that makes us happy. It could be the smallest fragment of a picture, maybe even just a hallway or a certain shaft of light illuminating the path forward. If we can see it, we can work toward it.  
 
Chiron in Pisces: What needs to be healed for a new vision to emerge?  Like all plans there may be limiting beliefs that make it hard to find a vision and realize it. Chiron asks us to suss out and heal or change the small beliefs that hold us captive.
 
Neptune in Pisces: Which methods of Piscean healing and creativity will help us move through these limiting beliefs?  Some of these methods may include the Piscean realms of yoga, hypnotherapy, retreat/spa time, past life regression therapy, creative consulting/coaching, dream work, poetry, dance, scriptwriting, film, mood and vision boarding.
 
Mars in Pisces: What action plan can I take to realize my vision? Mars wants action. There is a time when all the thinking in the world won’t be as affective as taking active steps. Do I see what I want for the future, and once I see it, what steps will I take to realize this vision? As Mr. Andy Warhol says (a true Leo), “Don’t think about making art, just get it done, let everyone else decide if it’s good or bad, whether they love it or hate it. While they are deciding, make even more art.”
 
What is trending in your chart for 2015? What is the life script you want to write this year? Would you like to have a conscious conversation about how these planets affect your personal experience? The transit astrology chart combined with creativity coaching is a great way to deepen this conversation. 

 

Zodiac In Translation

I would like to introduce to you my newsletter: Zodiac in Translation, a tinyletter for all those who have used my services this past year, zodiacal or otherwise. I have really enjoyed meeting all of you and always come away from our consultations with feelings of excitement.
 
I’ve been a travelin’ gypsy this past year which has given me the opportunity to meet with clients in Paris, London, Los Angeles, Moab, San Francisco/the Bay Area, and Seattle.  While in Seattle  (just last week) I attended Stephanie Gailing’s Astro Salon, Integrating the Depths and the Heights: Saturn in Scorpio & Sagittarius and David Whyte’s workshop: The Harvest of Winter. Both workshops were so spot-on for me that I thought I’d share some of my insights. 
 
From an astrological perspective Saturn is in Scorpio (for all of us) from October 5, 2012 until December 23, 2014. In just a few days it will enter the sign of Sagittarius. It seems that across the board it has been a hard couple of years for everyone. The term integrating the depths feels pretty apropos! In this final week there may be a first blush (it’s true for me anyway) of perspective on everything we’ve just gone through. Sagittarius gives us a chance to travel just far enough from the depth to finally see the bigger picture. It might feel like a sense of completion, like we’ve done something hard and now it’s time to figure out what we’ve learned from it. Saturn in Scorpio is interested in building sound structures at really core levels both physically and emotionally. Perhaps we’ve even had to be leveled to see the truth underneath.
 
If you are curious about how Saturn in Scorpio/Sagittarius is playing out personally in your chart, please let me know and we can schedule a consultation directed around this theme!
 
I also attended David Whyte’s workshop: The Harvest of Winter. The thing that I found most beautiful about this renaissance-man-poet was his interest in asking what he terms the beautiful questions. It was this very thing that inspired me to certify in life coaching, the idea that good questions can lead a person to a deeper inquiry within. David Whyte asked some powerful questions of the group. Here are a few that made me think.
 
Which story are you telling yourself that isn’t and never was true?
What parts of you have never talked to each other?
What harvest can you bring in to enable the happiness of your future?
What’s the last word you want to say before you leave the world?
 
 
Everything is Waiting for You
 
Your great mistake is to act the drama
as if you were alone. As if life
were a progressive and cunning crime
with no witness to the tiny hidden
transgressions. To feel abandoned is to deny
the intimacy of your surroundings. Surely,
even you, at times, have felt the grand array;
the swelling presence, and the chorus, crowding
out your solo voice You must note
the way the soap dish enables you,
or the window latch grants you freedom.
Alertness is the hidden discipline of familiarity.
The stairs are your mentor of things
to come, the doors have always been there
to frighten you and invite you,
and the tiny speaker in the phone
is your dream-ladder to divinity.
Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into
the conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.
 
David Whyte from Everything is Waiting for You      
©2003 Many Rivers Press