Martyr Vs. Trickster: To Moab With Big Magic

I had my travelling shoes on last month with stops in Oakdale, California for Symbiosis and Moab for a check-in with lovely clients and a chance to see the super moon lunar eclipse in the desert. My driving companion was Audible’s Elizabeth Gilbert reading from her new book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear.
Elizabeth Gilbert works a few angles in this book (part self-help, part primer on creative living). I love how she looks at the anatomy of an idea and the idea’s impulse to incarnate. When an idea comes knocking at our door we have the opportunity to invite it in or turn it away.  If we invite it in, we have the responsibility of bringing that idea to fruition. If we turn it away however, that idea will move to another door.
Her book has the familiar currents of the energy we’ll be feeling for a while on the heels of the lunar eclipse in Aries. We have pushed the restart button and may feel this for a few months to come. Aries, in charge of freeing the self from ties that bind, is working overtime right now. Do we ever diminish ourselves for others or make ourselves bigger in spite of others? What is my right place in the world? How do I recognize when I am there (in my right place)? Do I know how awesome I am?
She also gives us this interesting comparison between the martyr and the trickster with the opportunity to consider which camp we belong to. I had to ask myself some hard questions about which one I have tended to in my life. I ask you my dear readers, which one are you?
The Martyr VS the Trickster
We all have a bit of trickster in us, and we all have a bit of martyr in us (okay some of us have a lot of martyr in us), but at some point in your creative journey you will have to make a decision about which camp you wish to belong to, and therefore which parts of yourself to nourish, cultivate and bring into being. Choose carefully. As my friend the radio personality Caroline Casey always says: Better a trickster than a martyr be.” 
What’s the difference between a martyr and a trickster you ask? 
Here’s a quick primer.
Martyr energy is dark, solemn, macho, hierarchical, fundamentalist, austere, unforgiving and profoundly rigid. 
Trickster energy is light, sly, transgender, transgressive, animist, seditious, primal, and endlessly shape-shifting. 
Martyr says:” I will sacrifice everything to fight this unwinnable war, even if it means being crushed to death under a wheel of torment.“
Trickster says: “Okay, you enjoy that! As for me, I’ll be over here in this corner, running a successful little black market operation on the side of your unwinnable war.” 
Martyr says: “Life is pain.”
Trickster says: “Life is Interesting.” 
Martyr says: “ The system is rigged against all that is good and sacred.”
Trickster says: “There is no system, everything is good, and nothing is sacred.”
Martyr says: “ Nobody will ever understand me.”
Trickster says: “Pick a card, any card!”
Martyr says: “The world can never be solved.”
Trickster says: “Perhaps not…but it can be gamed.”
Martyr says: “Through my torment, the truth shall be revealed.”
Trickster says: “ I didn’t come here to suffer, pal”
Martyr says: “Death before dishonor!”
Trickster says: “ Let’s make a deal.”
Martyr always ends up dead in a heap of broken glory, while Trickster trots off to enjoy another day. 
Martyr = Sir Thomas More.
Trickster = Bugs Bunny. 
Gilbert goes on to talk about how the Trickster’s primary playing card is TRUST. It may seem counterintuitive to suggest this, because he can be so slippery and shady, but the trickster is full of trust. He trusts himself, obviously. He trusts his own cunning, his own right to be here, his own ability to land on his feet in any situation. 
This got me thinking about my own ability to trust myself. And, if I still have your attention my dear readers, I would love to hear from you! Would you please shoot me a sentence or two by way of email about what it means to trust yourself? I would be very grateful. 

Finally, I've met with some amazing, you could even say, tricksterish folks this month who seem to be telling me over and over again to lighten up, be curious, and to meditate (in the words of my nephew Ren) like a boss.